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Thursday, 26 August 2010

  • Home "sweet" home

    It has been ages since I last update, I eat, I sleep, I work, I shop, I go out occasionally, and I shout in my heart regularly.. well yeah my voice is never loud enough and I feel even more depressed when ppl laugh to my "shout".
    Well this is what people call life, but I feel lifeless.
    The house I stay now makes me depressed. Having to walk through pees & shit & sicks, sometimes condoms...every single time I get out of the house and get into the house... is really not a pleasant experience.
    Climb up 3 floors and  feeling a little dizzy, entering my room and see socks, worn trousers and shirts on the floor... T.T really it does drives me up the wall.. I will then ask Myles, why is this on the floor and why is that on the bed.. I really find myself annoying alot of time. I have no proper space to work, considering I am a full time worker working from home at the moment, I need at lease a proper desk to work on, but no, the room is too tiny even though I can fit the chair in between the desk and the bed but I can't fit myself in.
    I really really miss my last home even though I spent my entire winter without the any heat source except for my hot water bottle that I hugged when I work. Back then I really missed Malaysia, miss the warmth, miss my friends, miss my family, and my dog.
    Now that I have went back to M'sia and that I like the summer sun here, all I wish for is to get out of this bloody house and get a new nice place to stay... I don't care even to pay an extra 100/200 pounds anymore...
    This is not life...
     

Thursday, 25 December 2008

  • lullaby...

    This is a song sang by a father to his son... unknown author.. but i find it meaningful..the song's title is 'Six feet of earth'.

    I'll sing you a song of the world and its ways,
    and the many strange people you'll meet-
    From the rich man who rolls in his millions of wealth,
    To the poor struggling wretch on the street.
    Tho' a man may be poor, and it tatters and rags,
    There's a thought that you ought not deride
    Just a remember the adage we've all got to die
    And six feet of the earth makes us all one size.

    There's the rich man with thousands of spare if he likes,
    But he haughtily holds up his head,
    And he thinks he's above the mechanic who toils,
    And is honestly earning his bread;

    But his gold and his jewels he can't take away,
    When he goes to that place in the sky;
    For death takes us all, and conclusively proves
    That six feet of the earth makes us all one size.

    Now there's many a coat that is tatter'd and torn,
    That beneath lies a true, honest heart,
    But because he's not dressed like his neighbors in style,
    Why, society keeps them apart.
    For on one fortune smiles while the other one falls,
    No matter what venture he tries;
    Till time takes them both to the grave in the end.
    And six feet of the earth makes us all of one size.

    So if ever you meet a poor fellow that tries
    To baffle the world and its frown,
    Just help him along, and perchance he'll succeed
    Don't crush him just because he is down.
    For a cup of cold water, in charity given.
    Is regarded with joy up above;
    We are all but human, we've all got to die
    And six feet of the earth makes us all of one size.

    We are all but human, we've all got to die
    And six feet of the earth makes us all of one size...


    A meaningful song, it triggers me to think.. over and over again...
    My father never sang me any lullaby...but a lullaby like the one above.. I'd rather him not to sing me any..
    Not because I don't want to face the reality, or perhaps cruelty..but I prefer to be ignorance of all that..
    Yes I can't stop the rain from falling, and can't dark cloud from looming over me...
    But I will only remember only the good bits in my life...

    Met lots of different people, I give my trust, I try not to judge.
    But apparently I am disspointed...
    For on one fortune smiles while the other one falls,
    Not all are worth to give your trust to..
    I don't hate people... even though sometimes I said I do.
    But somehow... I just hope that I will not be dissapointed once again...





Friday, 28 November 2008

  • lalala~~~

    It's really amazing to see how fequent u guys update ur blog..goodness.. how i wish i have the time to update everything too..

    Life here has been so busy. And this week seemed to be the most amazing week of all. Besides getting few job offer ( which I have been worry of not getting any ), I've also won a competition surprisingly.. well I'm not going to show the work cuz I'm not proud of it at all. My aim was just the T- shirt initially. As I dont have enough sleeping shirt over here.. lolx.. n now i don't have to worry of my coming Europe trip anymore. Unless I spent all the money within this few months.

    Talk bout work. Im now working at the japanese restaurant. But I only get to work 3 days a week and 4 n a half hour per day. not enough for me to cover my rent at all. On the first day of working I received a call from Shanghai nights asking me if I could work for them as receptionist. The wadges is lower.. however I get to 5 or 6 days a week. Tempting... I'm now thinking of quitting the japanese restaurant job..hmm.. bad reputation for me huh if i quit 3 days after work? lolx.. Another job offer would be a freelance job. Still not sure if I can get it as I m not very sure of what to expect for the compensation yet. And that company that wanted to hire me are miles away from where I stay. Let see if I can sort it out later on.

    The weather here is getting colder n colder.. my body started to get immuned to it already. but somehow when i goes down to 1 degree celcius or below and when the freezing cold breeze blow right to my face I will still curse the UK weather. My skin is getting dry as well..again.. stupid UK weather. I'm still looking for a suitable hydrating mask here cuz the branded stuff here are too expensive for me to try on and on. Really regret for not bringing my mask from Malaysia..

    I used to convert MYR to GBP everytime I buy sumthin here. but now.. I convert the other way.. Gosh by thinking that way guess I'm goin to spend more and more. lolx. There is so many things I wan to buy.. T.T

    Anyway anyhow... life is getting more and more busy.. work and work.. assignments and competitions.. endless life.. endless fun. Need a break sometime.. need to breath..and inhale the fresh air..

    There are still many things and activities here that I havent update. I wish I will have more time soon...^^

Tuesday, 04 November 2008

  • london


    Arrivals...
    Didn't take much picture when I go to London..Though I thought it will be cold but the weather was hot...real hot that I had to take off one of my shirt..Ting wei was half dead  all the while until she saw chinese food...too bad I haven't get the food picture..or i will upload it by now..

    Went to Harrods just to accompany my cousin to purchase her LV bags..spent over thousand pounds there..i just watch.. lol.. and realize that almost half of the girls there carry an LV bag..what a same difference..

    I enjoy walking especially at China Town.. lotsa chinese there I would say.. and lotsa chinese words on the street..simply love the place.. how I wish we have a China Town in Bristol..but apparently we only have a chinese convenience shop.. pitiful...

    The sky turns dark at 4.30pm. Didn't get to snap lotsa good picture..as we spent our time enjoying expensive economic rice buffet at Hu Restaurant.. miss my mum's cooking all of the sudden..













Monday, 03 November 2008

  • 以为没事了。。一直到前两天到朋友家,无意中看到桌上的一张卡。。就失了神。想起自己房里也有一张一模一样的,不懂该怎么处理。好好的,不懂为什么会变成这样。。胡思乱想想了一大堆大便。。空空的也不知道该从哪里开始想。。想问,却又觉得没意思。想想也不会得到自己想要的回应。再说下去只会让自己觉得自己很烦。。
    累了,一个人的时候,真的好想养只宠物。。只有它们不会离开你。就算不会说话,看着它们也会觉得很开心。
    堂姐来找我,煮饭给我吃,真的让我觉得远远的距离变得好近。。感动。。当她问我新年能不能回去,能帮我拿到折扣。。觉得很开心,很幸运。。但。。就算能回去,赶不到团圆饭。。也怕再有一次的不舍得。。
    梦没了,也该醒了。。
    看了看那张卡,舍不得丢,送不出去,也不想收起来。。。。

    真没辙。。



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  • ysunnie
    no prob I might go again on the 19th hehe.. we will see how it goes.. gonna be here for a year sure got chance to meet up..u can come my place to stay for christmas too lol
    • Posted 11/3/2008 4:40 PM
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  • rynzstudio
    sunnie! heehe.. let's plan a holiday trip together! Sorry, i couldn't make it to London today. I need to get my assignments done before monday :( Anyway, it's very cold now. don't fall sick! have fun :) Send my regards to Nurul.
  • ysunnie
    bzbz..^^ update little by little from now on XD
    • Posted 10/23/2008 1:35 PM
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    More updates!!!

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